Just in case no one told you: even when you recover your relationship with your body, you’re not going to love it all the time. You’re not always going to feel good about yourself. Some days you’re going to feel uncomfortable and out of place. You’re going to want out of your body. Your body may not feel like your own on some days. And you’re going to have bad body image days where you feel like everyone is looking at you and judging the way you look.
We may miss our illness, our addiction, another person, or a living situation. We know going back to that thing would hurt us, but still we think about going back. But it’s just a thought and that does not mean we have to act on it.
There is no rule that says you need to be happy today. However you are feeling is okay. It’s okay if you’re not in the holiday spirit. Take care of yourself today.
Have you ever felt like nothing really matters? Like nothing you do will ever make a difference and your life doesn’t mean anything? That everything is completely random and life is cruel and good people don’t get what they deserve?
So whether it’s from the latest terrorist attack, a natural disaster, a depressive episode, or a personal situation, the last thing on your mind is eating. When nothing matters, why should you bother nourishing yourself?
Anger can be a safe feeling. It doesn’t always need to lead to yelling, aggressiveness, hitting, or eating. It can lead to healing. It’s okay to get angry, and it’s often necessary.
Common scenario: you’re getting ready for the day and you’ve got a cute top on, but when you go to slip on your pants, you can barely button them up. They may be cutting into your waist, unable to close, and just plain too tight. Regardless of where you are with your body image, this moment of being too expansive for your clothing can set off internal panic. You wonder what happened between this moment and the last time you wore these pants? Did you expand that much in one week? Why do you still even care about these things? One simple trigger has the potential to ruin your whole day if you let it.
Here’s your reminder to take up as much space as you need or want. Take up space with your physical body, with your voice, and with your thoughts and ideas. The world has plenty of room for you.