Just in case no one told you: even when you recover your relationship with your body, you’re not going to love it all the time. You’re not always going to feel good about yourself. Some days you’re going to feel uncomfortable and out of place. You’re going to want out of your body. Your body may not feel like your own on some days. And you’re going to have bad body image days where you feel like everyone is looking at you and judging the way you look.
We may miss our illness, our addiction, another person, or a living situation. We know going back to that thing would hurt us, but still we think about going back. But it’s just a thought and that does not mean we have to act on it.
There is no rule that says you need to be happy today. However you are feeling is okay. It’s okay if you’re not in the holiday spirit. Take care of yourself today.
“But Christina,” you say, “the prize for restricting these foods is weight loss.”
Or the prize is that you’ll live longer because you’ll be so much healthier.
Or the prize might be seeming superior to those around you for resisting food.
But the truth is, there is no prize.
We all agree these people are bad. But how can you fit into that same category of “bad” when you eat a cookie you weren’t planning on having. You can’t say you were so bad for eating extra foods. You’re not bad; you’re just human.
Hunger does not always feel safe. Sometimes hunger feels like the scariest possible sensation.
But hunger is safe.
You will not become nutrient deficient from one day of imbalanced eating. It takes time. And you may start to feel not so good if you’re constantly eating the same thing, so you will eventually gravitate towards something different.
Trust that your body will get what it needs.